Letting Go

Current mood: sad
Category: Life

"Pearlicia", I'm going to do the best I can with this one. So many people have a problem with letting go of the past. I don't. The problem is. I can't really tell you why I don't have that problem.

I can forget people at will. I don't really know how I do it.
I do know that without that skill, I would be a very angry man. Or repressed. Or just all around sad. It's sad when you can't break up. It's really sad when you can't forgive. And it's a got-damned shame when you can't grow anymore because you keep going back to the shit you used to do.

Having a good memory is great for learning and growing. If you are learning math and you have to go back to chapter 1 to be able to understand chapter 4, more power to you. But if you go back to chapter 1 and get stuck there, then you are retarded. By definition. Life is the same. Once you get stuck, you are retarded. If you want to stay back there, go ahead and get yourself a helmet and a drool bucket and kick it in retard ville.

Know that mentally retarded individuals try to learn and grow and can't. Us who hold on to old shit all the time are not trying. We CAN grow. Yet we refuse. How sad is that?


The optimist is crazy!! lol Well another great blog. I think that it is human nature(its sad) to consistently think and live in the past especially when it comes to people who left a footprint weather a positive one or negative one. I'm so guilty of this behavior. To this day I still hold resement towards people from high school even though I have grown to be friends with a lot of those same people today. I don't know why! At times I can look at them with a smile and internally think about what that person did or said to me when we were in 10th grade at Bernard's. If u have an answer GURU, comment.

BTW please erase the first post! Spelling

Aaahhh yes the blog I requested..(ur gonna have to give me one to blog about)....when u talked about no growth b'cuz of the shit we use to do....damn that hit home. I wish I could tap into ur ability to "jus forget"
I really think when there's a connection that we form (sometimes in our heads) that we try to hold on to that and still, if not anything else, have somewhat of a friendship which still feels like ur being cheated b'cuz inside you want it to b "something" else.
As for ur friend and the shhhhty ppl frm his past...that's an easy one to let go. F@$ em. They didn't mean shhh then and they shouldn't mean shhh now. My issue is with ppl you have cared about....
So much to say but I'm gonna leave it that.